To Explore Oneself
A guest contribution by HAMZA ZAFAR
Through-out my childhood, when the grownups asked me what I wanted to be, I’d say ‘engineer’, sometimes pilot. I had decided that I’ll never smoke in my life, never curse, always be with my parents and become whatever I wanted to be. But this isn’t only me, it’s you too; this is how majority of us are. But seriously, where has this part of us disappeared?
Take some time when you have nothing to do, and remember the most recent problem you have faced, the first thing you will think of will be the part where you could have done something else and the problem wouldn’t even have come along. Apply this to your whole life and remember the moment where you actually took the turn; your first cigarette, your first fight with a friend when you actually wanted him to ‘die’, that first time when you told your mother that you have grown up now so you don’t need advices.
Now proceed to the next step; focus and remember, what have you achieved in life, and out of it what have you truly achieved in life – something you can be proud of even after death? When you have answers to these, proceed to the next step.
Now, take time to think of what you haven’t achieved – the so called ‘broken dreams’. What you think you can never achieve because ‘someone’ is responsible for making your life miserable. And finally when you are done, either you will be embarrassed of yourself or you will be proud. If you are embarrassed, do not decide to change, that will turn out to be a disaster, just be careful for the time ahead.
Perhaps the biggest problem with the youth today is that at this age, many of them have chosen the wrong paths for themselves. There always remains a time in their life which they can never forget, where they took the wrong turn. If you have seen ‘Butterfly Effect’ movie or know the theory of butterfly effect, you can imagine a past moment in your life which you could just go back and change so the present would be different and preferably better. IMPOSSIBLE! But there is a realistic approach to this theory that can be used; think of any upcoming decision you have to make, and think of your future with it – the long term future. Long term because one usually makes decisions with the short-term benefits in mind, but he or she fails to realize the long-term effect; the lung cancer, the loss of self-respect, and seriously, the judgment in Allah’s court (THAT’S long-term). See if you have managed to comprehend the true reason of your existence, and give some time to yourself like you give it to all the people (in front of whom you would want to lionize your reputation) and explore yourself. You will surely find that lost kid whose biggest decision was to buy a new game on their play-station, the biggest fear was to upset ‘Mom’, and biggest wish to just grow up…